white blank page

~Her white blank page and a swelling rage

...How I feel sometimes when I write...

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~magpie


My Puzzle

I can't believe I acted so surprised when
you chose her over me.

I expected my world to fall apart.
But it didn't, because
it was already in fragmented pieces.
Pieces from my broken smiles and
your broken promises.

Yet, I walked away.
Earth under my feet and
sun on my shoulders.

Determined,
ever ready and ever steady,
to put it all back together once again.

Only I know where the
pieces of my life fit.

in the hopes of my writer's block ending...

Snow Falling

Outside, flakes fall like diamond chips,
hazy sunlight infusing their prisms with
iridescent rays.

There is a piece of coal, a shadeless form,
inside my heart.
And no amount of pressure will
turn it in to a
precious stone.

#reverb10: Lesson Learned

December 17 – Lesson Learned What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)

Lesson(s) in song


Certain songs have a way to express feelings, ideas, and hopes when I can't fully articulate them myself. I am usually listening to music in some capacity: in the car, on my iPod, on Pandora radio, or songs I create in my head. Here's a list of song lyrics I've come to love in 2010 that exemplify the lessons I've learned about myself this year...

My mind is open wide
And now I'm ready to start

                  - Ready to Start, Arcade Fire

It takes an ocean not to break

                  -Terrible Love, The National

Home is wherever I’m with you

                 -Home, Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father

Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers

               -The Dog Days are Over, Florence and the Machine

 

 

 

Cause you and your heart
Shouldn't feel so far apart

              -You and Your Heart, Jack Johnson

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

            -Chasing Pavements, Adele

 

These things, they go away,
Replaced by everyday

          -Nightswimming, R.E.M

#reverb10: Friendship

December 16 – Friendship How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)

My favorite frenemy

From "frenemy" to my person,

You taught me there's more to a person

 than meets the eye.

You helped me take chances and have fun.

Let us ski, surf, laugh til we cry.

Let us enjoy our youth.

#reverb10: 5 Minutes

December 15 – 5 Minutes Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

Give me just 5 minutes..

...Deciding to write and push my boundaries creatively...Skiing almost every weekend with Alissa...Learning to surf...Standing on the beach after my run and watching the sun rise over the Atlantic in Long Beach Island...My dad calling me his jewel..Running my first 10k when I thought I couldn't do it...Becoming closer with Mrs. M, a source of inspiration...Cuddling with my dog, Maxine, for almost three hours the day after Thanksgiving...First time being a costume manager for my high school's production of "Anything Goes," and continuing this year with "Phantom of the Opera"...Reading The Diving Bell and the Butterfly and Never Let Me Go...


5 minutes is just not enough; I must have had a good year...

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#reverb10: action

December 13 – Action When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Next steps, in no particular order:
Aha! Inspiration! Let me revel in your vision.
Oh no! I have to act on it! It can't be done!
It can though, just take the first step!
Make a list, come up with a plan.
Then, without warning, comes the cold feet.
No, I'm afraid!
It's too difficult, too much work!
I reassure myself, quietly and calmly.
Yes, it is difficult.
You're right, it is hard work.
But it's the plan, the first step in the
right direction,
that makes it that much easier
to turn ideas
into action,
and later, hopefully,
success.


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